"I can see clearly now the rain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me low
It's gonna be a bright, bright, bright, bright sunshiny day."
The weekend has zipped by as usual and even though it was a crazy, busy, stressful one, I'm feeling a lot more collected and organized. My being dramatic aside, it was an excellent weekend of quality time and conversations with friends and family mixed with efficiency and productivity. It's Monday morning and even though I'm dead tired, I am in high spirits and ready for anything this week has to bring me. Bring on the Holiday Cheer!
"Yesterday was plain awful," sang the little orphan.
"You can say that again," Daddy Warbucks replied.
(Louder) "Yesterday was plain awful!" repeated Annie.
Like I've mentioned before, I live a close to drama-free life. I may be surrounded by drama, but I, for one, am NOT drama. And now I have reached a point in my life where drama has come knocking on my door. Do I turn it away?
For being such a December pooper, I must say, things seem to be picking up pretty well. My winter funk has seemed to dissipate. No longer do I feel sluggish, moody, and alone, but rather energetic, excited, and perhaps a little anxious. It's funny how one weekend can change your whole demeanor. The cause of the anxiety might be the fact that I haven't started Christmas shopping yet, but really, that's the only quasi-negative vibe that is emanating from me. This week has been fantastic...filled with holiday lunch cheer and all. Plus, tonight I will spend my first night in my new apartment with my Paige Davis-like roommates, Skye and Annie. I might not have any furniture...but oh well, I'll deal. It's going to be great. I've been in such a great mood, I kind of have butterflies in my stomach...or maybe it's all the wine from our department holiday lunch. Heh. Good times. And tomorrow is going to be great with the BIG company holiday party. It's shot glass Thursday and we'll be doing a little p squaring. :) Maybe this time of year isn't so bad.
ĄNINE days until Christmas and I havenīt done a lick of shopping...eek! Iīm in big trouble. I donīt even know what Iīm going to buy for people. ĄIn fact, I donīt even have a list of people who I have to buy for! Ugh...Iīm screwed. I canīt believe how fast time has flown by. ĄItīs December!! ŋWhat happened to September thru November? Maņana...I will go shopping after work...(whine)...but I donīt wanna...
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Two words: OF COURSE! I NEVER go anywhere. It is very rare that I will leave Southern California and actually take a trip somewhere. I always talk about...going to Chicago, Boston, New York, Nashville...but do I ever go? Nooo. But this time I thought to myself: I'M GONNA GO. I'm gonna go visit SuzieTay and then we'll drive down to New Orleans and watch the Trojans beat the hell out of Oklahoma. Yes. No. Why no? Because of the damn BCS. Fuzz the BCS. The one time I leave SoCal...the Trojans end up playing in the Stinkin' Rose Bowl. Ppsh. Oh well. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. I'm going to see Suz. I'm going to get my blues on on Beale St. I'm going to Memphis. Plus, I'm going to Jackson, where the one and only Ms. Faith Hill was born. It's okay. Everything is fine. Really.
Honestly, I truly dread this time of year. First of all, I hate birthdays. Second, Christmas has become just one overly crowded, superficial, and stressful holiday. And third, New Year's sucks. I've never had a good one. So in an attempt to actually enjoy my December, I am taking a vacation. I'm going to Memphis for New Year's and to tell you the truth, I am really really excited. I'm staying with the one and only SuzieTay and hopefully I'll also visit with Maryam. My Memphis girls! I miss them so much! So Cal is not the same without them. I plan to do the whole kit and caboodle...I'll be walking in Memphis, walking with my feet ten feet off of Beale! I can't wait!
In other news...Today is BIG BELT BUCKLE FRIDAY and my choice today is my superman belt buckle. I'm trying real hard to set a trend here...
Lately, I've noticed a shift in my mood. I feel like something's not right. The way I see it, my life is like a molded puzzle. And for some reason, the puzzle pieces aren't properly fitting in their spaces. They're kind of off. The pieces represent the different aspects (general and specific) of my life. I don't understand what's going on, but I don't exactly feel whole. Maybe it's bad karma. I'm a firm believer in karma. Maybe I've been so fractious lately that it's affecting everything else in my life. The last time this happened, all hell broke loose. I got a visit from someone in the middle of the night, a phone call from the devil, and a nervous breakdown. I might be overexaggerating, I might not be. Anyways, I hope I can get over this...quick.