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Ho Hum

We're already midway through December. Inconceivable! Where did the time go? I'm finally getting a start on Christmas shopping...I know...I'm ridiculously behind. I'm finally almost done with work people. Almost. Then I've taken care of 2 friends....and that's it. That's all I've done. I haven't gotten anything for anyone in my family. I expect this Christmas to be very much like the last. Christmas shopping on the 23rd. Each year I tell myself, "Next year will be different. I won't wait until the last minute. I'm gonna get all my shopping done early." But no. It never happens. I think it's just my nature.

Procrastination is in my blood. All through school...I never started a paper earlier than the night before it was due; all through work...I'm waiting for the very last minute to take care of all these check requests (shit!); all through life...all the things I've been meaning to do, but have managed to hold off: learning how to swim, coming out to my parents, getting my motorcycle license. I am always in a rush and I am always a wee bit late. Damn me! I can't help it though. I mean, look at the way I was raised...every Sunday my family was 15-20 minutes late to church. If we were on time, we turned heads in that congregation. When I was in 3rd grade, I was the flower girl in my cousin's wedding...um, yeah...definitely late, and definitely missed the processional march (that's what it's called, right?) in the beginning. I know. It's really sad. I might be meshing into the issue of tardiness, but I feel as though procrastination and tardiness are very much related. They go hand in hand. Usually the reason I'm late is because I got caught up in doing something I hadn't finished. Why? Because I waited until the last minute to do it. I was procrastinating...procrastinating getting ready, procrastinating cooking that dish for that potluck, procrastinating getting that birthday gift ready for that party. Right. You can definitely count this as one of my flaws.